Thursday, May 1, 2008

You can't go home again

Thomas Wolfe wrote a novel titled, "You can't go home again" meaning that you can't recapture the past. This weekend, I'll be heading back to Montana -- my home state -- for the first time since July 2006 when I brought my father to live with us in North Dakota.

I asked Dad if he would like to come with me to Montana, but he didn't think he was up to the long drive. "I better stay here and take care of my cat," he decided. Oh, he also wanted to know if my wife was going to Montana with me. When he discoverd she wasn't, he said, "Well, if she'll stay home and cook for me, I guess I better stay home and eat it."

If I had my druthers, I would love to be driving to my hometown of Roundup to visit my parents in their big blue, ranch-style home on the edge of town. Maybe we'd be bringing some kites along to fly in open fields nearby or baseballs and gloves to play catch in the street in front of the house.

But the blue house is sold and my mom is buried in the cemetery near her brother's grave plot. So instead of going to their home to visit mom, I'll be going to the cemetery on the edge of town to put some flowers on her grave.

Certainly, there will be people to visit -- uncles and aunts and a hardworking cousin -- all who have meant so much to me and my family. But still it won't be the same. As Thomas Wolfe said, "You can't go home again."

1 comment:

Beagle said...

Hey Steve- I enjoy reading your blogs and all your interesting wit. Roundup will always be home to me- even though it has now been a year since I left there, the memories of family events and friends will always make the town my home. As you mentioned- the baseball games, kite flying, hanging out at Grandma and Grandpas, the story telling (think Pepto Bismo) and all the fun filled times spent with my cousins- going on road trips, camping in the back yard (I hope the grass grew back!) and all the other memories that makes Roundup, well memorable. While one cannot recapture the past, the past can evoke strong memories. I hope that you have a safe journey through the Treasure state- and have great memories of Roundup.